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[16 Dec 2006|11:48pm] time is never wasted, when your wasted all the time Comment

[01 Aug 2006|09:41pm] it shouldnt have to be like this. Comment

[09 May 2006|05:49pm] you broke into my thoughts Comment

[01 May 2006|04:42pm] id race time to be in your arms and if the prize is you; im sure i`ll win. its sink or swim and for you; id drown Comment

[01 May 2006|11:27am] You got a fast car I want a ticket to anywhere Maybe we make a deal Maybe together we can get somewhere Anyplace is better Starting from zero got nothing to lose Maybe we'll make something But me myself I got nothing to prove You got a fast car And I got a plan to get us out of here I been working at the convenience store Managed to save just a little bit of money We won't have to drive too far Just 'cross the border and into the city You and I can both get jobs And finally see what it means to be living You see my old man's got a problem He live with the bottle that's the way it is He says his body's too old for working I say his body's too young to look like his My mama went off and left him She wanted more from life than he could give I said somebody's got to take care of him So I quit school and that's what I did You got a fast car But is it fast enough so we can fly away We gotta make a decision We leave tonight or live and die this way I remember we were driving driving in your car The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk City lights lay out before us And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder And I had a feeling that I belonged And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone You got a fast car And we go cruising to entertain ourselves You still ain't got a job And I work in a market as a checkout girl I know things will get better You'll find work and I'll get promoted We'll move out of the shelter Buy a big house and live in the suburbs You got a fast car And I got a job that pays all our bills You stay out drinking late at the bar See more of your friends than you do of your kids I'd always hoped for better Thought maybe together you and me would find it I got no plans I ain't going nowhere So take your fast car and keep on driving You got a fast car But is it fast enough so you can fly away You gotta make a decision You leave tonight or live and die this way Comment

[01 May 2006|09:33am] The only thing worse for you than you is me. C i love ian oh my honey && mishaaaa && david pojman cause hes my soulmate and makes me happy [= & im getting married on long beach to LC* and im not sure what happened butt i do know kay bish equals sex you only see in pornos but wish you could have we do things sober you wouldnt think to do drunk Comment

[23 Jan 2006|08:27pm] & Your nothing now, but a blank face. I don't miss you "So don't flatter yourself sweetheart." © ©j & Maybe I'm falling for you. Just falling for you. Maybe just a little,but you'll never know this cause honey, I dont need a reason to get hurt again © ©j & Oh what a beautiful disaster dripped inpearls and lace A bloody breakdown that no one would ever know. © ©j A skirt to short,Stilettos to tall, a dash of eyeliner, a touch of red lip stick A mask of a broken girl. © ©j I loved you in a way no other girl could ever have loved you. The listening to you attempt to rap give up my afternoon to bake you cookies, waiting till midnight for your call butterflies that made me fall off my feet, kinda love. Trust me no other girl can love you in that kinda way. © ©j & darling you say it no longer matters because I no longer care. Well guess again, Cause your so wrong © ©j I pretend I don't care, like it doesnt matter that ripped my heart right out But in reality, it hurts like fuckin hell. © ©j I hope you choke, and stutter on every lie that you grasped between your lips © ©j Its like a game between me and you. Who can push the others buttons the hardest, Who can make the other most jealous & who can make the other hurt like hell. © ©j How can you say you still have feelings for me? When your out there fucking her © ©j Oh it wasn't just the sex. Oh No. Darling it was you I fell in love with you Something i never did © ©j Im crazy but i say its love. You can feel it all through your body. Your heart starts racing Your legs feel weak And yeat inspite of it all you smile, and know its the most amazing feeling in the world. © ©j For many years I didn't get close to anyone I didn't love and I didn't get broken. © ©j It seems to me as though first loves breakup in a way as if they don't want to at all, and sometimes if they are lucky their hearts find their way back to each other. © ©j I can hear the rain tapping against the windows, music plays softly in the background. my hair is wet and forming curls, and my jeans are worn and frayed. & All the while I'm thinking of love 1 Comment

[17 Jan 2006|04:42pm] ` there is a big world out there. Bigger than prom, bigger than high school. It won't matter if you were the prom queen or the quarter back of the football team or the biggest nerd in school. Find out who you are and try not to be afraid of it.<3 &&my heart is like glass;; and youu shattered it into a million peices<3 &&dont waste your words on things ive heard before<|3 ` `the greatest thing you`ll ever feel;; is to love and be loved in return <3 Sometimes I wish you hated me, I really do. Maybe then I wouldn't have to sit there everyday being your best friend and know that I can't have you. If it's the thought thatcounts then you can count on me because I think of you all the time. it's like that's all you were to me, one big disappointment..& I had to find that out the hard way. it's one thing to dream about someone everyday..imagine being with them..actually think you know them, & the more you think you do the more you actually want to. but then it's another thing to finally get to know them & find out they are a big disappointment..& all your dreams come crashing down. & I think I like you better in my dreams. & incase you were wondering you are like a hurricane to me your violence is beautiful & your center sweet boys should go to jail for stealing your heart.. ...& then breaking it. life is a balance of h o l d i n g :: on & l e t t i n g :: g o . i just wish i still had you here with me to hold.. to have that feeling that everything was alright & to have you look at me that way you did before, & i`ll still keep wishing --? i dont want to love anybody else. tell me that it*s over i can`t live without you can`t breathe without you i dream about you honestly tell me that its over cause the world is spinning and i'm still living it won`t be right if were not in it together &&ill be the first to go <3 sometimes you got to learn to let go - no matter H0W much you want to hold on. </3 it`s the way i could be having the WORST day of my life - but then i see you smile - && suddenly .. things arnt so bad.. she L0VES you. you can see it in her eyes. if i could have one wish - we would be best friends ; love would never end - it would just begin. && it`s like a pattern - everyone who said they`d be there .. left. forget the fun that you once shared - forget the fact that he once cared ; `forget the time you spent together remember now, he`s gone forever. & i guess they fell for eachother.. like they knew they always would. <33 he`s amazing - end of story. <3 so i put on my makeup put a smile on my face and if anyone asks me everything is 0KAY PE0PLE SAY DREAMS ARE WiSHES Y0UR HEART MAKES WELL iF S0ME 0NE DiES iN Y0UR DREAM iS THAT A WiSH ? iF Y0UR B0YFRiEND BREAKS UP WiTH Y0U iN Y0UR DREAM iS THAT A WiSH ? iF Y0U HAVE A NiGHTMARE iS THAT S0METHiNG Y0UR HEART WiSHES ? .. i THiNK DREAMS iS WHAT Y0UR HEART iS AFRiAD 0F.. & SHE SWEARS N0THiNGS WR0NG .. iT D0ESNT MATTER H0W HARD i TRY Y0U'LL NEVER UNDERSTAND .. <|3 & there`s always a little bit of truth behind every 'just kidding' .. && MY W0RLD iS FALLiNG T0 PIECES AND i JUST CANT TAKE iT ANYM0RE. </3 && what are the chances of a guy like Y0U - falling for a girl like me. i swear i dont want to love you ; but you make it so hard not to. Remember when friends didn't lie to you? & the worst thing anyone EVER called you was a meanie.. Remember when you were judged on how nice you were? & how you only wanted to hear i love you from your mom? Well, now.. friends barely tell you the truth. & people will call you tons of things that will make you want to break down and cry; Now you're judged on how expensive your clothes are. & you'd give up every single time your mom ever told you how she loved you; just to hear him say it once ... today i prayed my car would crash, you'd see it on the news and you'd think of me just as much as i thought of you. sometimes you say the smallest thing or smile & it makes my entire day better it's always the one thing we don't have.. .. that effects all the things we do have Maybe you were looking but weren't really seeing. - - A Cinderella Story - - what day is it - and in what month - this clock never seemed so alive - I can't keep up - and I can't back down - I've been losing so much time - cause it's you and me and all of the people - with nothing to do - nothing to lose - and it's you and me and all of the people - and I don't know why - I can't keep my eyes off of you - all of the things that I want to say - just aren't coming out right - I'm tripping inwards - you got my head spinning - I don't know where to go from here - -Lifehouse - - We're W0MEN. We don't say what we want, but we reserve the right to be pissed off if we don't get it.<3 Maybe happiness didn't have to be about the big, sweeping circumstances, about having everything in your life in place. Maybe it was about stringing together a bunch of small pleasures. Wearing slippers and watching the Miss Universe contest. Eating a brownie and vanilla ice cream. boy i feel sorry for you. there was a girl that would have done anything for you.. she might not be theprettiest or thesmartest but.. i can guarantee you.. she would have given you the world everytime you look at me just remember i could`ve been yours if you find somebody you can love ; you can`t let that get away - - The Wedding Singer When reality hits you, you finally realize it's not worth loving him anymore.. I bet you never imagined that one day, you'd look around, & i just wouldn't be there.. i'm sure you've heard these words before, & i know it's hard for you to trust them once more. You're afraid it all might end, & a broken heart is scared of breaking again. But you've gotta believe me ; i'll never leave you. You'll never cry as long as i'm there, and i'll always be here.. <3 Days like this i just don't know what to do with myself.. Too young to die & too old to believe in promises.. you never leave someone behind you take a part of them with you & leave a part of YOURSELF behind I don`t wanna leave, but we both know sometimes it`s better to go. somehow I know we`ll meet again not sure quite where and I don`t know just when. just know you`re in my heart until then. she always loved to help other people fix their mistakes but she never seemed to be able to fix her own. i`m one of those bad things that happens to good people. my eyes BURN from these tears don`t come crying to me when people start treating you the same way you treated me. stupid mistakes cause heartbreaks LiFE iS TO0 SH0RT T0 BE STUCK WiTH 0NE PERSON. he sees me like this but that doesn`t matter I wanted to go back to the good times, not the time when he broke my heart it kills me to see how fast you got over me & went to my best friend do you know how bad that hurts? I know you`re used to lovers that treat you like your mother so i know it`s hard to understand when I say i`m your girl but i`m like your boy. no matter if its sweet talk or street talk i`ll be right here by your side. and soon you`ll come to see how it is to be down with a chick like me BEST FRiEND -- the person that no matter how long it`s been since you`ve talked or seen each other, we can call each other no matter the time of day & pick up where we left off. S0METiMES the smallest things in life are the hardest to do. like clickin on his screen name & just sayin “hey” `cause it hurts to know that you are in love again after all is said and done you`ll be the lonely one. the heart does things for reason that reason cannot understand -princess diaries 2 without you in my life i wouldn`t be living at all sometimes even though you`re having a good time, you can`t help but stop & think about the GOOD 0LD DAYS because of you, i never stray too far from the sidewalk because of you i learned to play on the safe side so i don`t get hurt. because of you i find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me, because of you i A M A F R A i D Ever since the first time I held your hand I wanted nothing more than to hold it forever and i know you're better than the things you're doing and the habits you're picking up, but i also know that you don't want me to interfere with your life, so for now i'll let you make you're own mistakes and hope that you end up the way you used to be i say your name & wish i could have done things right.. i'm filled with regret for not telling him everything he didn't need to know but should have known he managed to do the one thing i could never do ; move on.. I predict our love will last because we made it through a hell of a past.. <3 Promise me that you will save a place for me in the future. I never thought saying two words would be so hard. I said them a thousand times, but it has never ever been so hard. That night as we stood in my drive way I didn't want the night to end. I knew those words were coming but I didn't wanna hear them. You said them then I said them too. I turned& walked away, tears in my eyes I will never forget that I night I had to say good bye. She's not the kind of girl who likes to tell the world about the way she feels about herself? if it's not keeping you up at night, then what's the point? Everyday is nothing butstress to me constantly dwelling on how you got the best of me this is a message from me to you, to make sure you never forget I love you, when things are rough and you feel lost, just call on me and ill be there at any cost, ill do this because I care for you, ill stick by your side no matter what you do, I am your friend through thick & thin, just as, for me, you have always been.. your like a guy out of my dreams, but yet you seem to be just out of my reach and ever since you walked intomy life I?ve just prayed it will all work out in the end you'll never leave where you are,until you decide where you would rather be stop PRETENDiNG LiKE you understand. . . cause you dont ;; N0 0NE D0ES * &&the scars on my wrists are constant reminders of the times everything went wrong. . . fake smiles ;; they work everytime. && i know what its like to want to die ;; to just want to give in and not have to deal with this pain anymore <3 The worst feeling in the world, Is loving someone when they dont love you back. Your heart aches everytime you see him And no matter how deep you look into his eyes... You'll never reach his heart && ever since i met you all i could do was draw stupid little hearts all over my notebook. x33 Sometimes life is so perfect isn't it? It has to be, to make up for all the hard stuff it throws your way. You have to learn to walk, you have to learn to talk, you have to wear that totally ridiculous hat your gramma bought you. You have no say in the matter. & when you're a little older, even though you get to choose your hats, you don't get to choose what they put in those meatballs in the cafeteria ..or when to fall in love..Things happen, & you just have to deal with it * How to Deal * Y0U were the guy who made it 0KAY - to [FaLL in LoVe] we'll ALWAYS be tight.. ya know, like a boy in spandex ;] Why am i so alone? I can`t go outside ; i`m scared i might not make it home.. we'll d0 what we g0tta d0 see what we g0tta see if we wind up t0gether.. then It was meant t0 be SOMETiMES WE PUT UP WALLS NOT TO BLOCK PEOPLE OUT - BUT TO SEE WHO CARES ENOUGH TO B R E A K THEM DOWN. Each time i whisper, "i love you" i'm trying to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me.. && i could never live without you.. <3 best known for failure best known for giving up & you were there for me when no one else was. Lets make this work xOox && prove them wrong Y0UR LiKE A B A D - H A B i T ; & BABYY ; i`M ADDiCTED. x33 && maybe if I ripped your heart apart at the seams maybe then youd know how I feel </3 & i cant really explain it ; but i`m so into you now .. i wanna be more than a friend to you now. < 33 Romeo && Juliet werent even this emo. <|3 &&i like to say im over you but im nothing but a L i A R </3 everything reminds me of you and i mean everything && when you?re around my whole body knows it. my mind goes blank and my heart starts to race. the b.u.t.t.e.r.f.l.i.e.s are let loose and my knees go weak. i?ll keep talking and stuff but i have no idea what im saying and i wont remember what my best friend just said because your face, your smile, your voice brings back memories that fill up my entire head. Theres No Point in tryin to rush fate * cause the best things in life are WORTH THE WAIT. Always SMiLE through the tough times cause` things will always get better. it might be cold and stormy but it can`t rain FOREVER. && No camera could ever capture the look in her eyes or the feeling in her heart ' when she looks at him. <33 you wanted the best ; & that just wasn't me Comment

[15 Jan 2006|10:02pm] if you don't like me - there's nothing i can do news flash girl ; i don't live to please you there's nothing you can say.. sorry doesnt [cut it] babe i could write a 400 chapter novel about every little thing that i love about him drop dead gorgeous .. she'd hang herself with pearls. i've been searching deep down in my soul. words that i'm hearing are starting to get old. it feels like i'm starting all over again. the last three years were all just pretend. and i said good-bye to you. sexy isn't what you wear ;; it's how you take it off. someone once told me the best things in life are worth waiting for. && i smile when i see your screenname come up on my buddy list. and some secrets weren't meant to be told ... the best memories are the ones you can't explain ... you just had to be there. my eyes tell secrets that my lips will never tell. i know i should tell you how i feel. but i don't want you to look at me && think i'm stupid. Comment

[15 Jan 2006|09:52pm] and when you finally get something good.. enjoy it. don't go on trying to get something better. i'll never forget what you did to me. and i'll never let you know i remember. ..& she's afraid that she might actually, really love him. and that scares her. whoever said that "love lasts forever" ...was obviously drunk. don't tell me this is happening again. i lost all of my hope.. to the last boy. you know you love him when no one else is worth looking at. there's only two things that stay true in a girl's life. 1. the only guy she can trust is her dad. 2. her true best friend is her mom. don't you just love how every girl's profile is about a guy.. but he doesn't get that every single word of it is for him.. how can you blame me..? the boy is gorgeous. you know you're hott.. if you wake up in my bed. =] Comment

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[13 Dec 2005|06:17pm] " && how can i feel bad when she brought it upon herself,its like she planted a bomb and expected it not to go off." Comment

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[02 Dec 2005|03:53pm] && She felt like a« movie star« in his arms. Comment

[02 Dec 2005|03:51pm] "Well it seems to me that the best relationships...the ones that last...are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is...suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with." Comment

[01 Nov 2005|05:28pm] yupp im really really confused and so much has happened in such a little amount of time. 1 Comment

do dah do dah do dah [29 Oct 2005|01:28pm] [ music | phone with casey ] im on the phone with casey and i just got home from soccer and turcos with rachel. i am bored...! davids party is tonight but i dont think i can go.! IM SO EXCITED FOR HALLOWEENNN!! ah our costumes r so riduculous i lvoe them. so last night me michelle steph n jenn went to good will to get a costume cause we have no money and all we fouund were plain white tops. then we went to subway got some dinner and then went to SHOP RITE and we gots cookie dough and were looking around and we saw this really hot kid. so we smiled at him, so then we payed and went out and he yelled something at us and we were like ummmm? and then so we started walking and we saw him ran across the parking lot like super fast, like clark kent style,so we got really freaked put so were just walking to jenns house and all of a sudden we hear " where are you girls going" and we turn around and hes there walking right behindus. We got so freaked out we ran inside tut benne and asked to use the bathroom, we stood there for like ten minutes and then we went out and he like disapeared then we ran all the way to jenns and hung out there and chilled made our costumes, then me steph and casey punkd michelle and jenn sooo badly... it was hilarious. any way im bored, my mom is such a murderous person and wants to put my dog to sleep. )=. im not going to let her. any way im very very very bored and freezinng.! <3emily 1 Comment

[28 Oct 2005|11:39am] yeah so its 3 days away from halloween and im home sick FANTABULOUS! ugh i feel very crappy. and alot has been going on but not really. um me and michelle r studying hard for the masters test i dont think ill get in, but w,e. im extremely bored and there is nothing to. i have soccer tomarrow morning )=. ugh i didnt even get my halloween costume ready yet. ugh it will be awesome tho. lmao. ttyl emily Comment

[11 Oct 2005|09:28pm] and after all is said and done all i will remeber is that your my only one <3 1 Comment

[01 Oct 2005|03:19pm] wow i havwnt updated in forever... and i cant think if anything to say really and all the stuff that has happened i cant exactly write. 3 Comment

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